Once,

I didn't really understood the human compulsion to hide under a mask.

But,

I realized I knew it all along.

Its just that,

I refused to acknowledge the pain of the otherwise.

Once,

I didn't really understood the instinctive reaction to curb all our feelings.

But,

I realized I knew it all along.

Its just that,

I had to weather it through to feel the underlying reasons.

Once,

I didn't really understood the need to hide the intensity of my emotions.

But I realized I knew it all along.

Its just that,

I don't want to be known anymore.

Because the more I search myself,
The more I am unsure of who I really am,

Whom I truly like,

What trust is,

Why things happen the way they happened,

When everything fall apart,

And

How I lost myself.