Hey, I am back! No poems for today too, my feelings are a little too complicated for even the most complicated poem. Just another weekend of roller coaster emotions... This week was tiring, exhausting, and I am wishing that the next week is over already. I wonder if there was a time where I am full of energy before, before I feel this drained. Been panicking, worrying, and emotionally torturing myself for a week (or two), and I really want to give up thinking about him for a long while. Except that he is haunting not just my waking moments, he is in my dreams too. Which is why I am really drained too, because I just want to conk out and rest without worries.

Giving up, is really much harder to deal with than in reality, than in ideal, where in my ideal world, I'll be happily sliding on rainbows and catching unicorns, eating marshmallows and chocolate pudding for dinner. Really.