I wonder, I really wonder how feelings work. Or rather, how attraction work, you know, in a scientific way (who are you kidding, jt??). But really, how does it work? Been a little hopeful these few days, and a little anxious, and perhaps a little panicky as well. Everything is a little scary, whether to go forward or to stay back, because both ways have so much potential to hurt. I feel a little paralyzed from the fear. Been waiting and observing, but pushing and trying too. Both courses of actions hurts too, from the insecurity. Like what if... I don't deny I am very afraid and scared to fall again...