Feelings

You know, its been a long time since our confession. Only three months in reality, I feel you are mine already. My heart is entwined with yours, and I believe yours with mine. Sometimes I wonder if this is a good thing, knowing that if I lose you now, it'll really hurt a lot.

I know that there can be no love without pain and vice versa. I know, yet I still hate the feeling of pain. Because that will mean you won't be there anymore. I miss the time of the beginning of our time together; the excitement, the shy eye contact, and the stolen glances. Our first hug, our first time leaning in each other's embrace. Before lust comes into the picture. Maybe its just me, or simply because I am a girl, I love the little touches and the flutter of my heart. The first rush of accelerated heart beat, knowing that you are there for me. Or maybe, for the first time in my life, I found someone who is willing to listen to me.

I know, its hard to go back, when things progressed. But I really miss the quiet times, either just sitting on the beach, or even in Changi Airport, where we are in our own world. Where we are contented, where we are happy. I want to spend more time with you, sitting together, an afternoon, just basking in the beauty of silence. And I'll learn to be less dependent on you and comfort you, because I am leaning too hard on you.

I really love you. And I am declaring here, in front of those who read my blog (a small number, but still). I wish that after the exams, I can be by your side. Hanging out with you, working with you, laughing with you. I don't want to be only yours, I want to be your best friend too.