Helpless

Staring out of the window
Looking at the lights
That dazzling pain
Scorched my eyes.

Yet,
I continued watching
Stay vigil beside my bed
Imagining something
That can put me to sleep.

I know what I am feeling,
But I couldn't acknowledge it.
Because the cost is too great,
If I let it out at this century.

Awareness,
Understanding,
Is a burden
Innocence,
Ignorance
Is pure bliss.

But one cannot
Exist without each other.
Hence,
In this life,
In every life,
There's a chance
For all of us,
To feel the terrible weight
Of knowledge.
To feel the lightheadedness
Of guileless.

How..
How..

Dreams

Holding to that dream,
Long long ago
The memories are hazy
Yet I remember
The warmth
That lingered on my hand.

Have I really kept
That dream in me
For so long?
How long has I kept it?
One year?
Two years?

But,
Dreams can only
Remain as
Dreams.
In the fantasy realm,
Where reality is barred.

Sighing.
Its better for
My heart,
My mental health,
To stay grounded
In reality and logic.

Bye,
My dream..
I will meet you,
Soon, but not yet.
I will come into your embrace.

Till we meet again.